30 days and starting to rise

I started to do dry January and failed after 2 weeks.  Not surprising and man it was a real shitshow.  I rode my bike to meet a friend in the snow for "exercise" and ended up getting super hammered at an abandoned building, watching it snow.   But since the, after having started over, it's been 30 days dry.  I am going to try for 90.  I started reading a great book "The Unexpected Joy of Being Sober" by Catherine Gray.  She's great, super funny, British, and basically partied to my level if not a tad harder but for a tad shorter period of time.  I think she went dry around 35 years old and I'm on the wrong side of 45.  So far things have been going pretty well.  IP Man, my alter ego and voice that voices my addiction tries to get me to drink, especially on Fridays, and also will attempt to get me to rationalize trying moderation, but I"ve tried this time and time again and it just doesn't work for me.  I'll just have 3, no 2.  Hell no, the inhibitions go down and then the drinks go down.  I would estimate that 1 in 3 drinking sessions and I loose control and start speed drinking.  I get annoyed if I have to slow down and am looking for my next drink before I finish the one I have.  This starts or continues a binge and this is going to end up basically killing me or making the rest of my life miserable.  

So let's list the good things so far. I'm rested.  I argue much less with my wife.  I am better at work.  I'm saving money.  I'm losing weight.  I'm starting to see things in brighter colors.  Some days still suck though and I feel like I must still be detoxing and feel like crap and I wonder what's the point.  But if I hang on I get that comfortable glowing feeling again.  I'm gaining confidence.

Here are some interesting learnings from this week.  

I've learned how to cure years of shoulder pain by hanging and doing rehab exercises thanks to the book by dr John M Kirsch called "Shoulder Pain The Solution and Prevention"

I learned that after yoga, if I lay with my hands parallel to my body, not flat that it really helps my shoulders as well.

I am using an app to count days called "I Am Sober:

I feel like it would be best to go one day or milestone at a time and the app helps with that.  Next milestone is 31 days, considered a month by the app and the next ater that is 40 days.

Over the course of the 90 days I want to kill my CC debt and a small loan, and then knock out my dept with Pearl.